"I meditate but nothing happens," so says my friend. Oh? Maybe what needs tweaking is your expectations. "Something" is happening but it is not in line with your expectations. The God I experience in meditation answers me sometimes in silence and blankness. That is not nothing. It is a response of incomprehensible mystery to my set aside time for meditation. God is showing up, but you want and expect something besides a blank empty feeling. Well, we don't control God, so forget your expectations. Have preferences if you want. I have let even them go. Preferences mean that I am still holding onto my will. Surrender is called for on my part. Yuk! I know, but that may be why God is seemingly absent in your feelings in any meditation. Surrender of the will? Why? You are human and so the will is a bit broken. We are not perfect. I was self-will run riot, so surrender for me is crucial. You may be in more virtuous shape than me, but surrender is still what God wants. How do I know? The blank times in meditation, the boredom, the empty feeling. Then I surrender a little. Then I don't care what takes place in my meditation. I just enjoy the incomprehensible mystery. And I gain sanity. So God must be at work. It is in the results of how your life changes, not in how good you feel when you meditate.
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