Domesticate

 I am a Christian who too often wants to domesticate the Gospel I read.  I want it to be comfortable and comforting.  I tend to have short term memory for what bothers me.  I tend to focus belief in that I am converted to believing the correct doctrine and tradition.  My shortcoming at these times is that I ignore the conversion of the heart.  I am shortchanging myself from a conversion of the heart that will more deeply affect my actions and attitudes.  Meditation opens me to listening to a Power, my God, who can ever so gently or more directly, point me in the direction of conversion of heart, such that my actions will not be from ego, fear, self, but from love.  I am a work in progress.