Beige

 Beige Recovery is OK.  I mean you are not drinking, probably going to meetings, putting money in the basket when passed, and being helpful when asked.  All good, but beige.  Why?  Step 11.  It is about prayer, and not just out loud serenity prayer, but something deeper, something more meditative, more trusting, more time in solitude and silence.  This is what takes you to your deeper self, which was damaged in your drinking days.  This is the place of the Light, which is not about brightness but about the Light Of Truth as to who you are meant to be.  Like what?  Like what will make you realize your oneness with all around you.  The separate self is always the false self of fear or pride, or shame and so on.  Beige is some light but not the Fullness of You.  Beige is the 11step recovery program.  The 11th step is often the missing or lightly touched step.