Not The Focus

I thought that I had made a breakthrough when I began to accept reality.  I did not so much need fantasies to soften the hard edges of the real world.  Life happens.  Much stuff is outside of my control.  Then the next wave of reality hit me.  The decisions of others were not focused on me.  They are not thinking about me!  I suddenly had a new reason to be angry and resentful, not to speak of frightened and anxious.  It is easier for me be a bit detached from issues that do not affect my daily life and routines.  It is much more difficult to accept what affects my daily comings and goings.  It is all about ego which wants comfort, power, esteem and chocolate.