Admiration To Envy

We move from admiration to envy or jealousy when you say, "I wish I was like her."  We stay with admiration when we are in touch with our own gifts.  When we are positive about ourselves, we don't compare and contrast.  We are comfortable enough in our own skin to appreciate difference and variety in people.  When we are down on ourselves, in a negative mood, self-loathing, we tend to get envious and jealous of other people.  They have what we want because we have nothing of value.  We are not enough.  But we all have gifts and talents, even if some of them remain undiscovered.  We won't look if we don't think anything is within us.  Be of service.  Be loving, forgiving, compassionate and you will begin to live your best self.  Then someone might look at you, and admire you.  You are not a troll. You are not a loser.  You don't have to go live in a hermitage in the woods.  The world will be the loser for not having you around.  Even if you are having a bad day, you are still precious.