Angry Belief

 I am puzzled by people who say they don’t believe in a God because they are angry about something that happened in the past.  God did not fix or prevent something, so they are angry and now don’t believe in God.  What puzzles me, is how can you be angry at something that does not exist for you?  Say a parent died when you were young.  You could be upset, anxious, sad, lonely, but why anger?  If there is no God for you, why does such loss make you angry.  Who are you angry at?  The parent who died?  You can be angry at people who hurt or betrayed you. They exist.  But why be blaming the God you don’t believe in?  So I think anyone who says they don’t believe and are angry about some event in their past, actually believe.  But it is very hard to wrestle with this belief.  It is easier to just say God does not exist.  Yet, anger destroys.  The spiritual wrestling match does not.