Cramming

 You know how important something is by how you fit it into your life.  Is this something, such as a group gathering, a priority in your life or are you trying to cram it into your schedule?  If cramming, the group is not very important, you are probably not getting max benefit from it, not giving much of yourself to it.  But if it is a priority in your life, then you fit your life around this meeting or gathering.  And you probably put a lot of yourself into this group if it is a priority.  You volunteer to do something in and for the group.  You are no longer on the outside, looking in, feeling you don’t really “fit in.”  With zoom you expend a lot less time and energy to “show up” at a meeting.  If you are cramming your zoom time, your life might be a bit more of a mess than it needs to be.  If I work on changing me, my schedule seems to become less problematic.  The priority changes.