Obey

I just found out that in the bible, "to obey" is the same as "to believe."  Well, those two meanings sure got separated.  I believe, but I don't obey.  We say that faith is a gift.  Obedience seems to be hard work.  We have had world wars of believers who killed one another.  Not much obedience there, except to your commanding officer or government bosses.  In my church, each year we are so proud to list all the new believers who joined up.  I suspect the list of obeyers is a lot smaller.  I know that I am not on it.  Why doesn't my believing roll over into my obeying?  Strong self-will and weak love seems to be my issue.