Thinking About Me

In the monastery no one is thinking about me.  This is a good thing.  We are supposed to be focused upon the presence of God in all our activities.  It is called "recollection."  If I get so focused upon some chore I am doing, then the chore has usurped the openness to God's presence and Will.  It is rather freeing to know that no one here is thinking about me.  I can eliminate the thought, "What are they thinking about me?"  It does not take long to get into the rhythm of monastic life.  We start early before a lot of daily stuff can get the spotlight.  God starts as the center of our life.  I try to do other things in moderation so as not to get so overextended in some project.  God is always thinking about me.  It is God's job.  So I can stop trying to do God's job and focus less on me.