Killer Disease

I hear alcoholism is called a disease.  If this is so, it is not like other diseases such as cancer.  Cancer kills, but it is counter productive for the cancer cells to kill.  Death of the host, your body, kills the cancer.  Cancer dies when the sick patient dies.  So cancer is not very bright when it comes to survival.  You might say, it kills you by mistake.  Alcoholism on the other hand is much more insidious.  It wants you dead.  It is very powerful and cunning.  You don't know you have it or you deny your have it, and when you realize you have it you just don't care and are ready to die.  People who have cancer, when they feel badly, they seek help.  They want to be well.  Few alcoholics seek help, or make use of it when they find out that there is a way to remission.  In the spiritual world, when you feel soul dead, there is a solution.  Suicide is a way to end it.  But then you die as well, which is the cancer cell solution.  I will not feel so bad, but oops, I am dead.  Prayer can be a way to feel other than miserable, lonely, useless and insignificant.  You don't even have to believe in God.  Deep meditation says to stop thinking about God.  Non-believers don't much like the god they think about anyway.  Meditation is like a therapy for our innards.  It requires no thoughts or words, or beliefs.  My God can work from nothing.  From nothing can come much.  Note the Big Bang.