Unwritten Story

I am not at the whim of fate, or habit.  I like the idea that I am yet a story to be written, in progress.  This gives me the sense that the future, however long or short, is not decided beforehand.  I keep my plans on the level of preference, but I try to stay open to other possibilities.  Mediation keeps self-centeredness rather small.  It is always there, but not so controlling.  A diary is one way to examine how the story is going along.  A daily examine of the day shows me if habit won out more than inspiration, courage, and openness.  The unreflective life can become a rut.  A little wilderness time in silence and solitude, can show me a different story on the horizon.