In the monastery life is rather predictable, relative to the outside world. I thought that I had gotten into acceptance and turning my life over to God, and that calmness was to be my guiding emotion. Wrong! I left for a trip and found that I am still a beginner. I got all upset about how little people protect themselves, and therefore me, from Covid. Then my airline went haywire and flights were getting cancelled everywhere. I got upset and was ready to give up the the trip and return to the monastery. But then God gave me a shot or two. I recalled acceptance. I then recalled that I was supposed to turn my life over to God. Let go and let God. Amnesia had taken away my spirituality and the old self reigned until I got the God shots. I have no control over airline chaos. I cannot make people wear masks or get vaccinated or tested. I am not in charge of any of that in the non-monastery world. So now chaos abounds but I am at peace. For now.
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