I am a bad priest. I rebel at some teaching of my Church. I am supposed to parrot them, but instead I rebel. I question. I ponder. It is insurrection at times. But someone said, probably another bad priest, that insurrection precedes resurrection. Say what? Well, experience the questions. Live the questions. Rilke said that. Maybe if I burn I will meet Rilke, the poet? But maybe, from deep inside, where things cannot be hurried, a new clarity will develop. I like that. Rilke says it requires humility and patience. I am in need of both, but they are necessary so I don’t just wallow in rebellion. But when I come upon this new clarity, my sense of resurrection to new life, and tell a non-questioning, fully accepting of Catechism person in my church, they say to me, “Father, I will pray for you.” Any insurrection people out there? I could use a congregation.
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I also am between a rock and a hard place. Thanks for the post.
ReplyDeleteI have to wonder if those who say that to you are living what they are saying? You are a child of God, a man of your word and Love in action. I am grateful for you and I hope you know that you're most definitely never alone.
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