Programs

 AA can teach you how to become a sober person.  It cannot teach you how to become yourself.  That is a journey ultimately done alone in deep meditation.  As a sober person, you will be a better person.  That is fairly simple, since as a drunk you were pretty messy, selfish and so on.  The Steps will give you some structure for praying and for faith.  Not the faith in a god object up in the sky.  It is faith that energizes you to pray without knowing where it is going, but “believing” it is going to good inner discoveries.  You move beyond words of petition, or thanksgiving and even gratitude.  You move to silence and stillness.  AA can help free you from a fear based life you had, so that you can trust the deepening process.  Persons not on such a path may ridicule you as strange or “far out there.”  Or just shrug their shoulders.  Or give you a a blank look if you try to articulate anything of your path.  Eventually, along the way, you may discover what you were trying to escape in drinking.