Being Yourself

 When you have a deep longing for God you tend to forget yourself, so I have heard.  Occasionally, it has happened to me.  It is like disappearing from my own sight.  And in this depth you become most yourself.  But suppose you don’t have much faith in a God or prayer?  There are still quite spiritual times when you do forget yourself and become most who you really are.  The constant focus on self is a false self, someone you try to be for others or cobbled together by culture and upbringing or just a lot of bad habits.  But think for a moment when you are completely absorbed in doing something so much so that you are not thinking about you.  That is when your true self shines, and though you feel the energy you do not so much “view it.”  When you do something you don’t like to do you are absorbed in the the resentment, self-pity, injustice of it all.  You are focused upon your false self and its misery.  But when absorbed in something that is really you, such self-centered focus disappears.  Doing a work that you love, making love to someone you deeply love, watching a beautiful nature scene, walking in a wood and seeing flowers suddenly appear, the mid-point of a really good run, you are not focused upon you doing it.  You are absorbed in the event.  These are God-moments, even to one who says they have no faith.