The monastery community has revealed to me my co-dependence. That is, my happiness, tranquility and peace depend upon the other monks shaping up and doing things the way they should be done. I do not control or decide my happiness. Others do. I find that on any give day, I am suddenly attacked by co-dependence. I am out of sorts because some monk did not do “the right thing.” I know what is right and they did not do it. Or, on another occasion, I feel ignored, and so get into a jag about being ignored. My importance depends on what others do, say, think, and so on. It is tough to be happy and at peace, when I have no say or power to make it happen. I need a meeting!
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The Serenity prayer works wonders for me at any time when that happens to me. 3 times in a row while being mindful of my breathing helps me Let Go...no wonder most meetings start with it! 😄
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