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When people start a spiritual practice, generally their motive is to have  "more" of something.  A good feeling, the sense of God or Spirit, peace, a good inner buzz, whatever that might be conjured up to contain.  Anyhow, many mystics, spiritual winners, say that "more" is not want you want.  No spiritual benefits  until after "more" is obliterated.  Yuck! you say.  But what is proposed along the path is that you reach a "Holy Ignorance."  More yuck.  But if you can stay in that moment when God seems most absent, the darkness will rest.  Trust God in any absence of God.  Isn't that what those recovery people say, "Trust God."?