Wanting

 A very hard concept to grasp in meditation, is the idea that as long as you want spiritual progress, it will not happen!  The wanting is an act of the will.  You need to let go of any focus on the will.  For one, we don’t really know what spiritual progress is.  Not for our individual self, and God is unique in the one on one relationship with each of us.  We have wants to get to heaven, be good people, and so forth.  But the depth of spiritual progress is about awareness, insight.  The “Aha!” It is not about being good, or getting things done.  It is a way of being that will underly all your day.  It is an awareness of non-duality that permeates in all your activities during each day.  You don’t forget or put aside this awareness when you are about getting things done.  You do and act with this awareness.  Just practice the prayer, a lot.