Not Yet Old

 Something is not old if it keeps recurring in the present.  So why do my "old" thought patterns keep coming back or periodically return unexpectedly?  I think that it has a lot to do with a daily spiritual practice or the lack thereof.  If the heart is not fed, then negative stuff will return or stay current: such as anger, impatience, selfishness,  and self-importance.  The will is not strong enough to get to the innards of energy that feed these patterns of negativity.  I cannot just wake up and pledge to do good and avoid bad in my behavior and attitude.  Our promises have to go deeper to the heart and the only way to go there is with some spiritual practice,  that has a bit of silence, stillness and solitude.  Be with oneself for a little while without trying to think good thoughts.  Forget thoughts.  It seems in these still, silent moments the less one does, the more that gets done.  Must be some Power somewhere at work.