Little Power

 Sometimes I pursue and seek “A Lower Power.”  A lower power might help me to get what I want, to be filled rather than empty to be satiated and full.  With what?  With all the things I think I want that will make me feel problems free.  If I have insurance medical issues I want my little power to fix it so that I will feel better.  Control, relaxed, no worries.  I pray to my lower power to come and fix my life and I give this power the tools.  But I find that I am not particularly changed from the better by my lower power being at work.  I am still all about me and my issues, my comforts, my sense of control, and esteem.  Now if I would seek a Higher Power, then I would have to surrender, say “Thy will, not mine, be done.”  I would have to trust and even follow directions from this power.  I may not get what I self-focused want, but I might get what I need.