A Sign

 The possible sign that your life has become unmanageable is when you tell yourself, “the next time it will be different.”  The next time is not different, but rather worse.  Someone who runs and has an injury that requires rest and rehab, says to themself, in denial, tomorrow it won’t be so bad.  Tomorrow it is worse and the injury becomes more difficult to heal.  Alcoholics know this pattern when it comes to their drinking.  They deny there is a problem.  The next time it will be better behavior.  But it is not.  Sometimes, we have to reach utter defeat before we will admit that we cannot go on as we have been living.  My running does not get better if I run on an injury.  How do I know?  it gets worse.