Outsider

 If you ever feel like an outsider to God or any spiritual source, take a look at the nativity story in Christianity and Jesus.  Who were the first persons to whom the birth of Jesus was announced?  Outsiders.  Those cute shepherds were living out in the fields.  They were the poor, underclass, and dirty.  They were on the bottom of social ladders.  The next group were the Magi who were not even believers in Judaism.  But they were searchers.  So searching can be better than believing.  They knew that Jesus was a king, but that did not make them jump into any religion.  Search and be open to surprises.  God hides in plain sight.