Change

 I remember when I thought life was about change of things in the outside world.  I was upset with people, places, things, from time to time and my solution was to change them or avoid something.  But I had very little success and so I stayed disturbed.  Then through some fortunate circumstances, that is the wisdom of others, I learned that what had to change was me.  I was powerless over the outside stuff, but could work on the inside stuff.  But I could not do it alone.  I needed mentors and meditation which meant I needed God.  The prayer had to change from, “God fix things (out there),” to fix me.  So now whenever I am disturbed, I know something is the matter with me.  When I am spiritually fit, the same outside stuff that would bother me at other times, does not bother me now.  I started to grow up!