Belonging

 If I walked into a bar back in the day before I got holy, I never felt I belonged.  It wasn't "Cheers."  So why was I there?  To help me eventually figure out where I did belong.  The bar did not so much have "flaws" as it had limitations.  It's job or purpose was not in the belonging business.  In the bar I was alone in a crowd.  I have come to find out that I can be very much alone but not lonely and certainly not alone.  The lack of people does not make for aloneness.  The God of my NOT understanding fills up much of that empty space within me if I let it happen.  A very sobering experience and a lot cheaper than the bar.