Losing Out

 Some people have an idea or expectation of what sobriety will feel like and they go after that feeling.  They get sober but the expected feeling does not follow immediately.  I suggest you not give up on what you have just because it does not conform to expectations or expected feelings.  Sobriety is better than addictive drunk even if it does not make you happy.  It might be only the first step to a deeper wholeness.  Don't tie something you did, into an emotional need.  Action and emotion are separate.  You can take the action of acceptance of someone or situation, but not feel so wonderful about it.  If I sit to meditate with the expectation that I will feel "good" or "better" than I won't be very consistent in meditation.  If it is the correct action, then emotion need not play a significant part.