One of the things that heavy drinkers, on the way to addiction say to themselves in a hangover or deep into the evening is, "I'm no good." They don't like themself very much and so alcohol is a way to slowly kill themself. Generally, somewhere in their early years they picked up the idea, the opinion, that they were trash, or just no good enough for someone. So besides drinking into oblivion, the alcoholic has a rich fantasy life in which they are not the person that hate but someone much more famous and successfully esteemed by the world. In recovery, one of the first persons on their resentment list ought to be themself who they abused. Then they get a second opinion from a sponsor and tribe of recovering people who have gotten off the self-loathing bus. Once a person loves their own self, they seem to stop judging, resenting, and being angry at so much of life.
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Yes this is true for all of us who suffer from the various expressions of this disease. It causes so much loss of relationship with self and others. The program gives them back.
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