Idols

Children are often given a very attractive sense of God.  It works for the child.  But what if God is not so?  Then as you grow up you become burdened with this desire for what is not.  What God is not gives little reassurance.  It could lead to resentment and then you become one of the "non-practicing."  So why not just confide in this God you distrust or doubt?  Honesty is a good way to stay on the spiritual path.  Who knows, but you may even grow to some sense of peace with this loss of your childhood sense of the beautiful God.  You may even become comfortable with the bracing absence of this God.  Just because the silent God, the seemingly small God, does not answer your questions, does not mean non-existence.  If every alcoholic had to have a good day, getting their spiritual comforts daily, in order to stay sober, the bars and morgues and rough sleepers on the street would be quite full.