The Balance

 As long as you can keep the pain of bad behavior in balance with the denial of your control over the bad behavior, you will continue to practice the bad behavior.  Drunks know this as do people who exercise too much.  There is pain as a result of the practice, but denial that you cannot fix it unaided.  To admit the loss of control or the possibility of insane behavior, we just keep doing what we keep doing.  As a runner I know my limits.  My body will remind me if I get amnesia.  With drinking I know my limits.  Abstinence is a good limit.  It works for me.  And I run better too!  A new balance.  Isn’t that the name of a shoe?