Friday, January 16, 2015
Recently, I went back to a parish I preached at many years ago. It is a neighboring parish next door to the parish where I often work now. I saw many people who I used to know from the old days. They told me how wonderful my preaching is. I felt like "Dynamite!" I am so gifted. Ego boosted. Then I had a graced moment in my thinking. These people think I am such a good preacher, but they never leave their parish to come and hear me preach a few miles away. I am not so much dynamite as I am a firecracker, good for a pop once a year. This is a graced insight because how can God use me if I am so self-important? God is the focus in my work and not me. I am of service to God and not my own ego. So I am thankful to all those people who ignore my existence. My ego says, "Take them off the prayer list." "Quiet, ego."