Insanity

 My normal way of thinking and feeling is insane.  I know this because I can spend a considerable amount of time and energy in a day being bothered and resentful of stuff around me that is not going to change.  But I am enjoying moments when I do change, and become sane.  I accept the way people are and the way things are that I cannot control. Thoughts that begin with, “If only” drop away from my brain.  I stop talking to myself.  Sometimes sanity just comes.  Other times I work at it when I become aware that I am insane.  I am having a sane moment now.  When it passes, I know the way back to sanity and that in itself is a grace.