Monday, June 19, 2017
The reason I think I am good with teenagers is because I was one for so long. I had arrested teenageness. When I fell in love, I became emotionally drunk. As we know, when drunk, we make silly decisions and do even sillier things. When not with my beloved, I was unhappy in my own skin, discontented being with me. This is teenage romance, except I lived it way past chronicle teenage years. When I got dumped, which was inevitable, I got angry at her and felt deep self-pity for me. I grieved as a teenager might do. Then something happened and I began to receive the gift of emotional sobriety. What happened? I came to realize that the problem was me. This is when I began to grow up. Whenever something bothered me, or I felt wronged, or innocently rebuffed, I asked myself what is my part in all this? It may be that the event or person in question did register negative on my radar, but often I found this was because I had unwarranted expectations, or was plain ole jealous, or had undue pride, or felt I am the center of the universe, and so on. When I could get out of my own way, and recognize my part in an emotional wave, I calmed down. I found that the same so called negative events did not bother me anymore, and often they were not so negative at all. Sometimes I have to laugh at myself, but you can't, or else I will put you on my resentment list and off my preyer list! Oops! Felling like a teen there for a moment.