Moses

Moses led the Hebrew tribes out of Egypt into the desert. He spent 40 days in a row up on a mountain with God. He saw God "face to face" it is said. Moses is way more spiritually evolved than I am. He must have no doubts about God.

Well, let's see. He brings the people to a really dry place with no water. The people complain. God tells Moses to command a rock to yield its waters. I would be a little shaky about this. I mean, a rock has water for all these people? But Moses is tight with God, so he should just order the rock to give it up.

Moses doubts. Read Numbers 20: 1-13. He has to hit the rock twice with his staff. Ordering the rock by voice alone, which God commanded him to do, would not be enough. This is going to cost Moses his entry into the Promised Land. For each of us there are probably some chinks in our relationship with God that we will take to the grave with us. Can you accept your self as you are, and then do the best that you can do?

Maybe the closer we come to God, the more that is expected of us? I don't know, but my ongoing faults, including doubts, are a doorway to humility and then surrender. There is always some light, some grace in our mess.