Saturday, February 20, 2016
The Wreckage Of The Future
When I am living in fear I tend to live in what some people call, "The Wreckage of the future." I cannot live in any appreciation of the present. I am focused on the future and it is not going to be good. Mind you, the future is not real or even guaranteed, yet I ask God to fix it up or make it better for me. God lives in the present, not the future. The future does not exist, but I waste time there anyway, and I worry. An example: I have no time to get everything done today. The day will become a mess, full of chaos and failure on my part. Everything is fine now, but the rest of the day will be a mess. Another: if I don't make this reservation right now, I will get nothing, or pay a terribly high price I cannot afford. Rush, rush or else. Another: I am on a waiting list for the elementary school my child must go to. My child won't get in, I just know it. This elementary school is a must, or else no chance for a good college. No job for my child. My child will be unemployed and never leave home. Another: my stomach aches. I have cancer, I just know it. I am going to die and have to make out a will before it is too late. And so it goes. I have to stay in the present, in acceptance and the pluses that are part of my life now. Now is all that I have. It is enough. God and my friends are in the now.