Friday, May 6, 2016
I am a bit of a "Two" on the Enneagram. What is that? In short, I tend to freak out when I am not needed. When I let it go, then I smile at my silliness, and am fine. The first summer that I realized the monastery did not really need me, I was restless and irritable a lot of the time. "They have no use for me!" "They don't care." "I am not important. I am a nobody." I got over it, but not right away. It was a gift to have time to pursue what other things God might have in store for me at the monastery. Whenever I think that a parish where I live has no need of me, I think about leaving and going elsewhere. "I am leaving this parish. They don't really need me." Then a friend talks me into staying. It is really about becoming enlightened, letting go of this need, that is really a band aide to some inner baggage, and seeing that a door closed and another opened. But don't stop reading my blogs, or else.