Saturday, May 11, 2019
A too big ego is unmanageable. When I am in this state, I tend to try or think I can do things that I cannot do, that are beyond me. So I need to get a second opinion from someone who knows about big egos. I cannot manage things that are beyond me. Failure, and the expending of wasted energy are the results. Another reason that big ego is unmanageable is that when I act on it, the impetus is to get the approval, and esteem from others. I end up trying to do things that in fact I do not enjoy, simply for praise from others. But I cannot guarantee that praise, much less that I will be noticed. So this goal cannot be managed either. Daily, I try to keep a right size ego that is useful to others and does not beat myself up. If my resentment list remains empty, this is a good indicator that I am staying right-sized.