Thursday, June 28, 2018
I am coming to the conclusion that I am not a Christian, much less a Catholic. This is bad news for a priest. What happened? A faith issue? No not so much dogma faith, but rather, I don't seem to want to "take up my cross and follow." I get annoyed at something unexpected that does not go my way or fit into my program for today's happiness. Is this not where I should be picking up at least a small cross? I seem to want a religion that makes me feel better and needs only my affirmation of dogmatic statements and creed. I seem to be more whiny and self-centered, and not so selfless and giving when it is inconvenient. So I cannot be a Christian. It is about action. Jesus did not so much say, "Believe the creed. Go to mass." Then again, I know a lot of people just like me. Would this not be like someone who says, "I am in AA, and I believe in the 12 steps," but does not do them and is of no service to anyone but themselves? I might know one or two of those people too. But I gotta work on me. See ya.