Sunday, November 20, 2016
Sometimes you will see a priest wearing a ring that looks like a wedding band. It is meant to signify that he is the bride married to Christ the bridegroom. It comes from the Song of Songs imagery in the Bible. I never did get a ring. I am still too flawed with selfishness and self-will. When I was ordained, I thought that maybe I would now become "good." It did not take. I stayed selfish. I am not ready to marry Christ. I see myself as still dating in my prayer and work. I am inconsistent in being good and doing good. Sometimes I can do good things, but I might be grumpy, or pray, but only to try and get God to change God's mind to give me what I want, or avoid what I don't want. I am still too much about me to be married to God. As I look around I see other people who said, "I do," but they did not change either. I dodged that bullet. God is at work still in my life.