Saturday, November 26, 2016
I cannot run my life by myself. Self-management does not bring optimal results. I need help, advice, companions on the journey, a spiritual time of pray. Without these efforts at second opinions, the only thing that I do alone is self-inflict pain, resentment, judgment and a dose of irritability. Alone, I seem to suffer general discontent. So I don't try to run the show on my own. This of course goes up against rugged individualism, the self-made person, strong-willed person. I do have a strong will, but it is usually riotous when given full reign. This is one of the best reasons I have for early morning prayer, and evening examination of my day. In the morning I set my preferences, not "must happen" plans. I try to be open to the unexpected, the stranger, to get a sense that I am connected with all the world around me. I ask for help, knowing I well need it. Bad things can happen, and do. But I have found that a lot of the pain from them can often be diminished by my attitude and spiritual condition.