Control

 When I say, “I can control this,” I probably have already lost control.  Do I say I can control eating broccoli?  I never think about broccoli and control.  If it is served I eat some.  That is it.  I do not crave broccoli or think a lot about it or if there will be enough for me.  I only think about controlling things in which I have problems of control.  I don’t have problems eating sweets such as chocolate which I love.  I know a little is OK and more is not.  So I can have chocolate around.  I have given up those things that I used to say, “I can control this.”  I lost too many battles.  My body has always won out over my mind and will power.