Prayer Agenda

 Do you pray to try and get your god or power to make the world conform to your personal plans or wants?  I find that I do this at times. The shortcomings of this agenda in prayer is that I focus on the world out there being changed and not on my change.  I try now, more often, to open myself, call it surrender if you will, to God's plan to change me to become my better self.  I don't quite know what that will look like, but I believe the better me will be good for myself and those around me.  So it is a prayer of faith in an unknown future.  God has a plan, or opinion, of how I am supposed to be.  It is good for someone like me to always get a second opinion about my future.  Keeps me from letting self-centeredness, or bondage to self, ruin the future for me.  In recovery, it is called, "turning your will and your life over to your Higher Power."