Aloneness

Each of us has an aloneness as part of ourself.  Some try to escape it with mind altering stuff, or try to “get somewhere” as in a better or different life, with “more” of something not clear.  Others though, embrace the aloneness and probe it for some deeper meaning.  Instead of seeking more, they let go of the self they have been manufacturing as a “fitting-in” to whatever.  I used to escape aloneness, thinking it was loneliness.  But the the light went on.  I try to keep a clear mind, clear of substances that might alter reality, and clear of passing thoughts, anxieties, fears, and even second-guessing.  Wait.  Be patient.  Be still. Look in.  See.