Thursday, September 22, 2016
Someone said that she at times "shoulds" herself. I can relate. Sometimes I too say that I "should" do this or that. Should is the word that tells me I am in a bad space or on the way to one. With the should word comes the feeling and self-judgment that I am lazy, inefficient, talentless, and an overall bad person. I end up with guilt and shame. Now that surely makes for a bad day. The vice is really false pride. I think that I should be better, and even be SUPER person. I fail to be me, someone with a limited amount of power, who will need to find more power if I am to do any of the things I think I should be doing, such as saving the world. I find that doing nothing for the moment, and getting a second or third opinion is a much better way to go. Prayer gives me a second opinion. If God gives me no more power than I guess my "should" is bogus. I get a third opinion by checking in with someone who is on the spiritual path. For me, to negotiate my "should" notions alone is a disaster.