The Disguise

 All of us have needs and wants.  I try to keep them separate.  If I let go of focus on me, in meditation, I seem to be able to keep them separate.  If I ignore my interior “need” for silence and stillness, then my wants tend to bleed into disguised needs.  Disguised wants can chew up my day, my life, my peace.  And they never satisfy, because wants, disguised or otherwise, never answer the heart-need that I think we all have.  I may need to eat or bathe, or put gas in the car, or charge the battery of car, phone, but I don’t need to do a lot of social media, or fantasize about a different life.  At the end of the day I ask myself, “Did this or that satisfy?”  Or is the hunger within still unattended.